Before I knew the Lord, my life was a mountain that I was going around daily. I was following the same path and doing the same thing day in and day out. I wanted to die . . .
I wanted to die because of the things that I done to put Christ back on the Cross. I was in sin, adultery, and a drunk. I would party till early hours in the morning then go home then get up and go to church. I thought it was ok. I got involved with women and alcohol and one day I did not want it anymore. I had prayed and asked god to help me stop.
A few days later I was at a party and went home late and got a DUI. I woke up that night in jail, and I said, "God if you can help me I won’t drink again." When I hit rock bottom I knew that the only way up was through Christ. I asked the Lord to forgive me of my sins, and to come into my heart and be my Lord and Savior. I was not satisfied, because it seemed like the problems were still haunting me. I would visit my church at night because I felt lonely at times like no one cared.
I was in a relationship where I got used and filed bankruptcy because I thought since she got sick that I could help her, but it really turned out I got played. I wanted to take my life at that point and throw it all away. I was sitting down writing out my will, because I wanted to die; then I heard a voice say, "Come to me and I will make it better." I visited many churches looking for that voice but did not find it. I had to move since I lost everything do to this relationship. I rented a room from a family that helped me get through my situation, because they just got free from the same problem. This is how God works. He sends you to people who have been set free so they can help you.
After a few months with this new family and a new church, I found God. Then one day was listening to a song, and I quickly found out who was singing the song. I just started to worship and wanted a way out from where I was. My friend was reading a magazine, when the Holy Spirit told her to go and lay hands on me. I suddenly repeated what she was telling me to say, and the Power of God touched me, and I was in the floor crying and speaking in tongues for 3 and ½ hours. I was soaking wet and when I finally got off the floor and I proceeded to go to bed.
After many days and months went by I can say that the Lord is a Merciful God and his Love endures forever. I started to read my bible and the scripture that was a light to me was Psalm 18:2 - The Lord is my Rock, Fortress, Deliver, Strong Tower, My God, strength in which I will trust. The Lord is my Buckler, and the horn of my Salvation, and High Tower.
I started claiming that daily until it became a revelation to me. Today I can say that my personal relationship with Jesus is better. There are some days though where I feel weak and not sure about things, and that’s when God will send someone to share his word with me or he comes and comforts me with his love.
You may struggle in life sometimes like we all do and we will, but call on friends who you can trust to lift you up, pray for you and care about you.
How you can have a personal relationship with God is:
1. Ask Jesus to come into your heart and be your Lord and Savior.
2. Repent of all of your sins, and forgive others.
3. Ask the Lord to create in your life a new person.
4. Go to Church and get involved.
5. Hang around other believers who will encourage you.
God is a Merciful God and If you can just believe, then you can receive. To be guided in your life, ask the Holy Spirit to guide you into the direction that you need. In Mark 16:7, it shows that God is a God of second chances. John 3:16 sums it up for our life, and if we can just believe and trust in the Lord, we will be saved.
Thank you Henry for sharing your walk!
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